For most of my life, I have been running away from my emotions.
I grew up believing that showing emotions was a sign of weakness.
Strong people keep everything inside. They don’t lose their temper. They don’t act impulsively. Strong people are always in control.
Strong people stay detached in order to make rational decisions. They look at facts and disregard feelings.
In my old-fashioned model of the world, it was okay for women to be emotional. Being strong was masculine, and I wanted to be a “real man,” whatever that meant.
Looking back, this attitude of “nothing affects me” might have been a…