pulling the plug

Pulling the plug

by Paul Strikwerda in Articles 40 Comments

Confession time.

You’ve always been honest with me, so I’ll be honest with you.

I promise to make this brief. 

For the last couple of months I haven’t been happy, and I came to the conclusion that it has to do with this blog.

Writing always came easy to me, but since the beginning of this year, it felt like the creative well inside of me had pretty much dried up.

I was struggling to find stuff to write about, and when I finally found something, it took me hours to finish a few lousy paragraphs. Last week I had the worst case of writer’s block. Every word that came out of my pen felt like drawing blood from a stone.

This wasn’t fun anymore. This was agony.

So, if it was that painful, why go on? Why not end it?

In a nutshell, I felt obligated to keep on writing. I had made a commitment to my readers. I was also in the midst of my annual fundraiser for MS and I had not reached my goal yet. It would be foolish to quit.

So, I started thinking about the post that’s scheduled to come out this Thursday. There had to be something to write about. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that my heart wasn’t in it anymore. This blog felt like something I had to do instead of something I wanted to do.

Here’s the thing that scared me most of all.

Something told me I wasn’t going to get over this hump. It’s not that I wanted to quit writing for a few weeks and then pick it up again. This felt more permanent.

Last night I woke up at 3:00 AM. I sat up in bed, and all of a sudden it became very clear to me:

I was done.

I had to say what I wanted to say, so why risk repeating myself? There are many wonderful voice-over blogs out there, and you’ll be fine without this Dutchman’s opinion. 

The only thing I wasn’t sure about  was when to announce the end of my blog. Should I wait till Thursday, or would it be better not to drag it out any longer and tell you on Monday? The more I thought about that, the more I wanted it to be over. 

My grandmother used to say: “Never postpone the inevitable.” That’s why you are reading these words today.

Before I close the door for good, there are a few things I want to say.

I hope you understand why I can’t go on any longer. I set very high standards for myself, and I simply feel that I am unable to maintain those standards anymore. 

I want to thank you for your support, for your loyalty and for all your comments. Together, we’ve had a pretty good run and I will always remember these past few years.

If you’d like to stay in touch, I’d love to hear from you.

You know where to find me!

Paul Strikwerda ©nethervoice

PS This story appeared on April 1st, 2013 and I timed it that way for a good reason. No, I’m not pulling the plug. I just pulled a few legs!

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